I've been in pain since Wednesday. I can barely walk, the pelvic pressure is so bad and I've been contracting like crazy. I had to take terbutaline last night. I haven't had to take it for two months. I wondered (hoped) it was a bladder infection again but I got it checked yesterday and there isn't one. I'm blaming this one on my neighbor. She did some thing that has me super stressed out plus I have about 100 things going on. I'm worried that if I go to bed she will call the city, the dog pound and CPS! Long story and I don't feel like going into details but to sum it up we have a couch, a bunch of chalk, a few boards with nails sticking out and a few weeds in my front yard, a dog that barks occasionally (mostly when her son is out on his skateboard), I homeschool and homebirth. She could easily pick on me if she really wanted to.
I have costumes to finish, a couch to clean up so I can bring it inside, my house is very dirty because my kids have been doing the bulk of the cleaning lately and, well, they are kids. I have a front door that doesn't open, brakes that squeak and a son that is sleeping on the floor because his bed is broken. I wanted to finish my midwife requirements before I started having problems but because most of the births this month have gone too fast I've only been to two and I should have been finished by now. So I'm probably going to have to quit before I get finished.
I don't really have anyone that can help me either. My Mom is out of town, my MIL just got back from 3 wks in Africa and has a big event on Monday to get ready for. Most of my friends are either out of town or as busy as I am. Dh has a hard time getting the ok to take time off so most of the time he just doesn't bother. Thank goodness he has a three day weekend. Hopefully we can get a bunch of things done.
Yep, I'm being whiney and feeling very done with all of it.
Friday, May 23, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
Much, much better!
I think the Lord has decided to save me from myself because I've had very few problems since that last entry. I don't think I've timed any contractions since then, the pain is mostly gone and I started prilosec for the heartburn. I still occasionally have to stay up late due to heartburn but it only happens once or twice a week rather than the every night that it was before. The blood sugars are much better, not sure why except I've found what works for my body and I'm following it. The Dr also suggested that the UTI might have been partially responsible.
As predicted, JA did really well for two weeks, then I noticed yesterday that he has started to slacken off on his testing. It's the same routine. He does really well for a week or two after an appt, I watch him really closely until I start feeling like he is doing ok, then I start giving him more space and after a couple of days he starts missing a test here or there then it eventually gets to the point where we are lucky if he remembers one test a day. I will resume watching him closely today. He has his first appt with a counselor next week, good timing I think!
Cp update. Well, I still don't know. JZ and AC should have broken out this week if they were exposed. Granted it could still happen in the next 3 or 4 days plus AC got a few red dots on her face that could possibly be cp but there weren't any other symptoms ie: fever. So I still can't say for sure but it seems like if it were cp at least one of them would have gotten a more severe case. So at the moment I'm assuming that it was never cp to begin with and they should still get exposed at some point.
As predicted, JA did really well for two weeks, then I noticed yesterday that he has started to slacken off on his testing. It's the same routine. He does really well for a week or two after an appt, I watch him really closely until I start feeling like he is doing ok, then I start giving him more space and after a couple of days he starts missing a test here or there then it eventually gets to the point where we are lucky if he remembers one test a day. I will resume watching him closely today. He has his first appt with a counselor next week, good timing I think!
Cp update. Well, I still don't know. JZ and AC should have broken out this week if they were exposed. Granted it could still happen in the next 3 or 4 days plus AC got a few red dots on her face that could possibly be cp but there weren't any other symptoms ie: fever. So I still can't say for sure but it seems like if it were cp at least one of them would have gotten a more severe case. So at the moment I'm assuming that it was never cp to begin with and they should still get exposed at some point.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
He is home
When I got to the hospital on Thursday I met with JA's Dr and he said that since his numbers were fine during the night that he would be able to go home. He needed to meet with the psychologist one more time and go to a nutrition class and then would be done. We left about 12:30 and he decided he wanted to go to the remainder of his classes for the day so we got home, he showered, then I took him to school. He said everyone was very surprised to see him.
He has done great since we came home but he always does for the first week or two after a Dr's appt. The real test is to see if he continues. We have made a few changes in routine so hopefully that helps.
I was recently told that mild cases of cp can come and go. When I picked up SR on Thursday she had a few more spots on her lip. I assumed because of that that it was not cp until somebody told me otherwise, course that wasn't until after she played with a friend on Saturday! I'm feeling frustrated because of it! I just wish I could say for sure one way or another. It would have been much easier if she had just gotten a full blown case of it.
It's been a crappy pregnancy day. I am now in the portion of my pregnancy that I dread from day one. I get heartburn so bad that I start dreading the thought of food. I usually spend the first half of the night sitting upright until whatever I ate before bed (I don't eat any later than 7:00, I go to bed at 10) finally gets digested. A lot of the time that doesn't even help. I've tried every remedy known to man, NOTHING works! This pregnancy I'm finding my blood sugar slowly creeping up. It used to be that the only thing that affected it was a lot of straight sugar all at once. I've taking a cup of jelly beans here. Now I can't seem to have any more than about 55 carbs for breakfast or it goes high. Between the two I'm beginning to feel a real aversion to food.
I just wrote a long whiny paragraph that I've decided I don't really want to share but sufficeth to say I'm sick of the pain and ctx and I still have at least 12 weeks left. I would spend most of my time crying my eyes out except I can't stand the stuffy nose that goes along with it. The biggest thing I worry about is that most of the time I don't care whether or not I'm having contractions so I ignore them. You don't have to remind me how risky that is.
A friend from church told me today that she is pregnant. I think she said she was around 8 or 9 weeks. I'm not quite certain what she wanted from me. First she stated that she wants to get to the point where she has homebirths but for now she wants to stay with her OB but that her OB is changing hospitals to one further away from us. Then she said something about a midwife. (Still trying to figure out staying w/ ob and going to midwife too? Maybe a mixed practice?) I told her that even though I can't take the national exam to become certified until August 2009 I could still be a DEM before that and that I also planned on talking to some midwives about being my backup. So then she backed up and said she wasn't ready for a homebirth yet. At first I thought she was wanting me to be her midwife but I realized after the conversation that I didn't quite know what she wanted. Anyway, just thought it was interesting!
He has done great since we came home but he always does for the first week or two after a Dr's appt. The real test is to see if he continues. We have made a few changes in routine so hopefully that helps.
I was recently told that mild cases of cp can come and go. When I picked up SR on Thursday she had a few more spots on her lip. I assumed because of that that it was not cp until somebody told me otherwise, course that wasn't until after she played with a friend on Saturday! I'm feeling frustrated because of it! I just wish I could say for sure one way or another. It would have been much easier if she had just gotten a full blown case of it.
It's been a crappy pregnancy day. I am now in the portion of my pregnancy that I dread from day one. I get heartburn so bad that I start dreading the thought of food. I usually spend the first half of the night sitting upright until whatever I ate before bed (I don't eat any later than 7:00, I go to bed at 10) finally gets digested. A lot of the time that doesn't even help. I've tried every remedy known to man, NOTHING works! This pregnancy I'm finding my blood sugar slowly creeping up. It used to be that the only thing that affected it was a lot of straight sugar all at once. I've taking a cup of jelly beans here. Now I can't seem to have any more than about 55 carbs for breakfast or it goes high. Between the two I'm beginning to feel a real aversion to food.
I just wrote a long whiny paragraph that I've decided I don't really want to share but sufficeth to say I'm sick of the pain and ctx and I still have at least 12 weeks left. I would spend most of my time crying my eyes out except I can't stand the stuffy nose that goes along with it. The biggest thing I worry about is that most of the time I don't care whether or not I'm having contractions so I ignore them. You don't have to remind me how risky that is.
A friend from church told me today that she is pregnant. I think she said she was around 8 or 9 weeks. I'm not quite certain what she wanted from me. First she stated that she wants to get to the point where she has homebirths but for now she wants to stay with her OB but that her OB is changing hospitals to one further away from us. Then she said something about a midwife. (Still trying to figure out staying w/ ob and going to midwife too? Maybe a mixed practice?) I told her that even though I can't take the national exam to become certified until August 2009 I could still be a DEM before that and that I also planned on talking to some midwives about being my backup. So then she backed up and said she wasn't ready for a homebirth yet. At first I thought she was wanting me to be her midwife but I realized after the conversation that I didn't quite know what she wanted. Anyway, just thought it was interesting!
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Quick update
I need to leave for the hospital but I thought I'd update you real quick.
JA is doing fine although he got a bit bored last night. He is already tired of the things he brought to keep him busy. We are finding out that he really wasn't getting enough insulin. I felt a little better when even the hospital couldn't keep his blood sugar down in a normal range. We met with a psychologist that feels he does have some emotional problems that would benefit from meeting with a counselor so we will start that when he is released.
MA is feeling much better. We still don't know if SR had cp but the three sores she had are scabbed over so even if she had it she is no longer contagious. I think the only way we will know for sure if she had it is if the other kids get it too.
Ok, off to the hospital. I'm hoping to make it before the Dr. comes in to see him.
JA is doing fine although he got a bit bored last night. He is already tired of the things he brought to keep him busy. We are finding out that he really wasn't getting enough insulin. I felt a little better when even the hospital couldn't keep his blood sugar down in a normal range. We met with a psychologist that feels he does have some emotional problems that would benefit from meeting with a counselor so we will start that when he is released.
MA is feeling much better. We still don't know if SR had cp but the three sores she had are scabbed over so even if she had it she is no longer contagious. I think the only way we will know for sure if she had it is if the other kids get it too.
Ok, off to the hospital. I'm hoping to make it before the Dr. comes in to see him.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
As if I didn't have enough on my plate
Lets see, where to start? JA went in yesterday for his regular diabetic checkup and it's not good news. In spite of all the changes we've made and watching his blood sugar checks closer (obviously still not close enough) his average blood sugar (Aic) is still way too high (10.7). The Dr needs to know if he is getting the right amount of insulin and the only way to really do that is to put him in the children's hospital for a few days. We have to check in today after one and then he will be there until Thursday. As much as I would love to stay there with him the whole time I just can't imagine I will get much sleep on those lovely hospital beds with my big ol fat pregnant body! LOL So I will come home during the night and stay there all day.
Sunday, SR had a fever. Actually she was complaining first about a rash on her bottom. It didn't look like a diaper rash type of thing (she wears pullups at night) but I wasn't really sure what it was. She said she felt fine otherwise so we all got ready and went to church. As soon as we got there I realized she had a fever so dh brought her home (10yo was home sick, next story!). Monday I looked at the sores again and realized they looked like chicken pox. I still don't know for sure what it is because she only has the three on her bottom and she got them before the fever but they really look like what I remember cp looking like. Since we don't know for sure we are going to treat her as if she has it and take the proper precautions. I was concerned about putting JA in the childrens hospital but the nurse assured me that since he has been vaccinated they won't worry about it. I haven't a clue where she was exposed (to those who are wondering I didn't ever expose her on purpose like I considered. If it is cp obviously the Lord decided for me).
MA has a horrible raw throat with little white spots on it. She started up with a fever on Sunday and the sore throat has gotten to the point where she has quit eating. So I'm going to get her tested for strep today.
So this is my day. I need to take MA to the dr, get JA packed for the hospital and the rest of the kids packed for Grandma's, make some phone calls to make arrangements for the kids, call the midwife I'm working under to discuss situation, pick up prescriptions that my kids will run out of during hospital stay, take all the kids to Grandma's, drop JK and AC off at their classes and then head to the hospital. I won't mind the break at the hospital, though!
Sunday, SR had a fever. Actually she was complaining first about a rash on her bottom. It didn't look like a diaper rash type of thing (she wears pullups at night) but I wasn't really sure what it was. She said she felt fine otherwise so we all got ready and went to church. As soon as we got there I realized she had a fever so dh brought her home (10yo was home sick, next story!). Monday I looked at the sores again and realized they looked like chicken pox. I still don't know for sure what it is because she only has the three on her bottom and she got them before the fever but they really look like what I remember cp looking like. Since we don't know for sure we are going to treat her as if she has it and take the proper precautions. I was concerned about putting JA in the childrens hospital but the nurse assured me that since he has been vaccinated they won't worry about it. I haven't a clue where she was exposed (to those who are wondering I didn't ever expose her on purpose like I considered. If it is cp obviously the Lord decided for me).
MA has a horrible raw throat with little white spots on it. She started up with a fever on Sunday and the sore throat has gotten to the point where she has quit eating. So I'm going to get her tested for strep today.
So this is my day. I need to take MA to the dr, get JA packed for the hospital and the rest of the kids packed for Grandma's, make some phone calls to make arrangements for the kids, call the midwife I'm working under to discuss situation, pick up prescriptions that my kids will run out of during hospital stay, take all the kids to Grandma's, drop JK and AC off at their classes and then head to the hospital. I won't mind the break at the hospital, though!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Someday I may
get around to keeping this blog current all the time. Someday my house may be clean again. Someday my fridge won't look like a science project Someday my girls won't have to borrow each others underwear or struggle to find something to wear because the laundry will be caught up. Someday I will be able to do a lot of things. Today and probably not any time soon will not be that day.
Yeah, I'm a bit discouraged. I had to miss prenatals again today. I am soooo not happy about it. I missed the last birth that came up, thank goodness it was a transfer (obviously not for the Mom but it did make me a little less bummed about it). If any births come up in the next few days I will probably have to miss it too. I went to a midwifery conference last Saturday. Loved it, had tons of fun, learned lots and came home feeling crampy with hugely swollen ankles. I let someone rub them for me knowing all along that it could cause problems but it felt heavenly and actually helped quite a bit. They went down a bit and I had to pee soon after (sorry TMI! LOL) Unfortunately the cramping started up within 1/2 hour and by the time I got home I was doubled over in pain and could barely walk. My family was at my Mom's celebrating JA's bday so I had to go there first when I really wanted to just go home. I had a quick bite to eat, we opened presents and ate cake then I got dh to drive us home and leave his car there.
Anyway, the cramping didn't stop until Wednesday, then the contractions started up. I ended up having to take terbutaline for the first time this pregnancy. I avoided it as long as I could cause I really hate how it makes me feel but after trying everything I could think of and contractions getting way too close together and painful it was time to do something different. Today is much better with just a bit of cramping and very few contractions. I told a friend today that I will spend a few more days down and then try to increase my activity and she said she thought those increased activity days were over. I know in my heart that is probably true but I'm soooo not happy about it. I'm still hanging on to the hope that I can keep going to births until the end of May.
I struggle a lot these days with anger. I struggle with not knowing what to do or where to go with my life. I want to make plans anyway and keep hoping but I'm slowly losing that hope. I want to ask a lot of why's but then I think why not? What makes me so special that I think I won't struggle. More than anything I don't trust any thought that I think might come from the Lord because that's why I'm in trouble now. I still have a basic strong testimony that God lives and He knows I exist but beyond that, I'm struggling.
I desperately need dh to go through storage and find maternity clothes for me and short sleeved clothes for the kids. Most of his evening are very busy, some days he doesn't get home until 7:30, then he spends the rest of the evening cooking dinner, running kids back and forth, doing laundry, going to the grocery store etc so I don't know when he will have time. His Saturday's end up getting filled up with other things that come up so I may just have to figure out how to do it without him. He is such a sweetheart, though, he never complains!
Sorry to complain so much. I will try to post some upbeat posts soon.
Yeah, I'm a bit discouraged. I had to miss prenatals again today. I am soooo not happy about it. I missed the last birth that came up, thank goodness it was a transfer (obviously not for the Mom but it did make me a little less bummed about it). If any births come up in the next few days I will probably have to miss it too. I went to a midwifery conference last Saturday. Loved it, had tons of fun, learned lots and came home feeling crampy with hugely swollen ankles. I let someone rub them for me knowing all along that it could cause problems but it felt heavenly and actually helped quite a bit. They went down a bit and I had to pee soon after (sorry TMI! LOL) Unfortunately the cramping started up within 1/2 hour and by the time I got home I was doubled over in pain and could barely walk. My family was at my Mom's celebrating JA's bday so I had to go there first when I really wanted to just go home. I had a quick bite to eat, we opened presents and ate cake then I got dh to drive us home and leave his car there.
Anyway, the cramping didn't stop until Wednesday, then the contractions started up. I ended up having to take terbutaline for the first time this pregnancy. I avoided it as long as I could cause I really hate how it makes me feel but after trying everything I could think of and contractions getting way too close together and painful it was time to do something different. Today is much better with just a bit of cramping and very few contractions. I told a friend today that I will spend a few more days down and then try to increase my activity and she said she thought those increased activity days were over. I know in my heart that is probably true but I'm soooo not happy about it. I'm still hanging on to the hope that I can keep going to births until the end of May.
I struggle a lot these days with anger. I struggle with not knowing what to do or where to go with my life. I want to make plans anyway and keep hoping but I'm slowly losing that hope. I want to ask a lot of why's but then I think why not? What makes me so special that I think I won't struggle. More than anything I don't trust any thought that I think might come from the Lord because that's why I'm in trouble now. I still have a basic strong testimony that God lives and He knows I exist but beyond that, I'm struggling.
I desperately need dh to go through storage and find maternity clothes for me and short sleeved clothes for the kids. Most of his evening are very busy, some days he doesn't get home until 7:30, then he spends the rest of the evening cooking dinner, running kids back and forth, doing laundry, going to the grocery store etc so I don't know when he will have time. His Saturday's end up getting filled up with other things that come up so I may just have to figure out how to do it without him. He is such a sweetheart, though, he never complains!
Sorry to complain so much. I will try to post some upbeat posts soon.
Monday, March 24, 2008
I can't believe how long it's been since I've updated!
Are you all wondering if I fell off the face of the world? LOL I'm still alive and kicking, just barely! LOL The surgery went well but it took me MUCH longer to recover than I thought it would. A week after the surgery I still couldn't sit up or walk for very long. Two weeks after I wasn't in pain but felt exhausted most of the time. It was three weeks after when I finally felt relatively normal. It was very worth it, though. I feel sooooo much better. I can eat just about anything without having problems. It took awhile for my digestion to normalize but it was still much better than before.
On Thursday I will be 20 weeks. Goes fast, doesn't it. The first 20 weeks are typically my easiest and they haven't been for the last two pregnancies, this one and the last one but I'm hoping the next 20 won't be a repeat of the last one. I've already had several days when I've had to stay down due to contractions so I'm not very hopeful.
Kids are doing great. JZ is a normal almost 2yo. I've never had a climber until now. I know, after 6 kids I should have had more than one but he is my first. I'm finding him on top of everything, even in our jetted tub that is nearly 4 feet high! Thank goodness there was no water in it! I caught him another time with a chair pushed up to the counter getting into the cookie jar.
Easter was fun. I was hoping for a nice family pic but JZ was sleeping. Maybe I will try again next Sunday. Everytime I turned around JZ had found another piece of candy from somebody's else's basket.
I think I've been trying to pass a kidney stone. When they did the scan for my gallbladder they said there was also a stone in my kidney and said if it wasn't bothering me than to not worry about it. I asked my sil what it was like for her and my symptoms sound similar to hers so maybe that quiet stone is now causing trouble for me. Yeah, I know, just what I need! LOL
I'm still going to births. I keep wondering if I will be able to do it much longer but the last few I've been to haven't needed much support from me so I mostly sit on the couch and read or chat with relatives with intermittent heart rate checks. I have now caught 6 babies and am up to 24 births total! Yay! Just need 16 more. If things go well I could be done by the middle of May. Thanks for checking in, Brandi, I loved being at your birth!
On Thursday I will be 20 weeks. Goes fast, doesn't it. The first 20 weeks are typically my easiest and they haven't been for the last two pregnancies, this one and the last one but I'm hoping the next 20 won't be a repeat of the last one. I've already had several days when I've had to stay down due to contractions so I'm not very hopeful.
Kids are doing great. JZ is a normal almost 2yo. I've never had a climber until now. I know, after 6 kids I should have had more than one but he is my first. I'm finding him on top of everything, even in our jetted tub that is nearly 4 feet high! Thank goodness there was no water in it! I caught him another time with a chair pushed up to the counter getting into the cookie jar.
Easter was fun. I was hoping for a nice family pic but JZ was sleeping. Maybe I will try again next Sunday. Everytime I turned around JZ had found another piece of candy from somebody's else's basket.
I think I've been trying to pass a kidney stone. When they did the scan for my gallbladder they said there was also a stone in my kidney and said if it wasn't bothering me than to not worry about it. I asked my sil what it was like for her and my symptoms sound similar to hers so maybe that quiet stone is now causing trouble for me. Yeah, I know, just what I need! LOL
I'm still going to births. I keep wondering if I will be able to do it much longer but the last few I've been to haven't needed much support from me so I mostly sit on the couch and read or chat with relatives with intermittent heart rate checks. I have now caught 6 babies and am up to 24 births total! Yay! Just need 16 more. If things go well I could be done by the middle of May. Thanks for checking in, Brandi, I loved being at your birth!
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